Hey Hi, remember me?
So a lot of you have noticed my absence. And then, maybe no one has, I don’t know. I’m sure some dismissed it as the turn the Anna/Bates storyline took.. but that was just part of it.
After Kris disappeared, I got to thinking. Her story on meeting B did not in any way shape or form add up… so once she hightailed it out of here.. I decided to dig a bit. I found nothing. Couldn’t find a single mention of her on the internet. That just doesn’t happen these days… So then I really got to thinking. And after a little digging uncovered some of what our anonymous friend posted for us. And the lack there of. No obituary…
Lisa never died. Kris never existed.
I didn’t have proof, and I didn’t have the desire to start a war… so I just kinda stopped.
I won’t lie. It fucking hurt. I gave money to her, I bought stuff from the store because I assumed her family was struggling. I made a video of all the reasons I loved her and sent it to her as a way to meet her and a way to say goodbye. I worried about her kids and her husband, and even about her pets. All very much wasted. Maybe this is what she wants.. people talking about her. I don’t know I don’t care what she wants really..I can’t make sense of what she did. Really? all because of an actor? You are gonna project how hard it would be on your kids if you died? so an actor on a soap will tweet you? The irony of her tumblr URL “livelovedonate” to support her niece… when she just shit all over any person and family who had ever been hurt by cancer is more than I can understand.
So sigh… shortly after she died, I made a post. The title of it was “I’m here because of FRS”. “Kris” even liked it. And it’s the truth, she was the reason I started this blog. And she is the reason I’m not continuing it. I know some of you will be critical of that decision.. but it wasn’t really a decision. I was already struggling to continue an interest in DA, and after learning about Lisa.. well, I have no desire to be a part of this fandom or any other. I thought she was my friend, and I thought she was hurting, struggling, and I was very sad for her. Now that any feelings of anger and shock have worn off, I just feel really silly and really dumb.
There are a handful of you I am very grateful for. Juju, G, Kristen, Andrea, Amy, Kayla and Janet. You all at least checked in on me. And I’m happy to call you my friends. And will continue to do so.
I still love Jo, and I still love Anna and Bates. I’m not deleting anything, and I will still operate as a news source for Jo and post the HQ images I run into.. it’s just not fun anymore.
and I guess finally… dude, just be fucking nice to people. Show some respect to people. Don’t use them, have respect.
Hey Hi, remember me?